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Walls - Self Preservation

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As a child I was definitely considered to be the goodie-two-shoes. I was happy and my spirit was one that was crazy and full of little girl sassiness! I spoke my mind and so easily I loved those in my life. I wanted to show people my life, I wanted to tell all the little details of my every move. I didn't try to hide my flaws or my feelings, I was completely transparent. When you saw me, I showed you who I really was. That was me as a child. Today, as life has happened and I have grown older I have reflected on my life and have come to realize that I am no longer transparent. I no longer let others see me entirely. Am I lying about who I am? No. I just have automatically made a defense mechanism of having so many emotional walls up to prevent others from hurting me. I believe transparency comes easily as a child. When we are young we believe that no one will ever hurt us, that everyone loves us and wants our best. As we get older, we come to the sad realization that humans are s

My 'Midlife' Crisis at 23

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Throughout the years I would have said that I have become wiser, more understanding of how life works and what I am suppose to do in it. That is not the opinion that I have today. As an adult you are suppose to go to school or learn some sort of skill, get a job, find someone to marry, and move into your own place. You then are going to impact your family, your church, or your community in some way. This is what I expected, but that has not been my reality. I never thought I would ask what happens when God completely takes all of that away?  When you have prayed and done everything you thought was right and still nothing seems to be going in the right direction. As a Christian, what am I suppose to do? I tried to follow what was set before me, follow where God was leading in my life, and then again... and again...and again, the doors just seemed to close. I easily have found my way into discouragement through many different situations. It is so easy to focus on the fact that I don&#

Trashin the Checklist

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Where is your treasure? I recently was reading in my devotions about how a rich man told Jesus he was ready to make it into heaven because he was a good man. Jesus then went through the law and he said "Master I have done everything in the law, I have kept all of the commandments." Jesus told the man, "If you have done all this, then sell everything that you have and follow me." The man went away depressed because he was a rich man and had many things. Most of us have heard this story, I have hundreds of times, but the truth in this situation really sheds light on the human heart. How often am I doing right on the outside? I cross all my 'T's' and dot all my 'I's', but truly my heart isn't the Lords. This man was rich, he probably had a great education, I am sure he tithed, he kept the Sabbath and he flat out said that he always honored his parents. (which means he was lying, really who on earth has never talked back or been disrespectf

How to make your Dress more Casual

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Ever have a really cute dress that you love to wear but it is to fancy to wear at other times? How about a dress that doesn't really fit in with the season?  Here are some ideas of what I do to dress down an outfit! First I want to say that as Christian women who should strive to have clothing that draws attention to our face.That is not saying we can't wear cute clothes, or clothes that make us look more attractive, but the whole reason to wear clothing is to glorify God. If you are wearing something to draw the wrong attention from guys or you are wearing something that is just bringing glory to yourself, one should rethink wearing that particular outfit. When I was in my teens I remember that I felt like my self worth was based on how put together I was or how I looked. In later years I have realized that yes the Lord cares how I dress, but my entire life should not be focused on that. My self worth has nothing to do with my clothes or makeup. I am worthy because Christ ma

Makeup for Glasses

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So if you are like me and have been blessed to be able to wear $400 dollar accessories (aka glasses) then you may have noticed that your makeup appears differently when you wear your glasses compared to when you are not. Your glasses distort what everyone else sees. If you do the same makeup routine for glasses as you do without glasses your results will not have the intended outlook. Here are some tips to what I have found with trial and much error. 1. Don't put eyeliner on your lower line. Remember glasses distort what you see, they give you the ability to see better, but it also distorts your eyes making them appear squinty. Instead, put a brightener on your lower line Some people use white. I actually use a lip liner that is a light pink. This will make your eyes look bigger. When you have your glasses on your eyes will appear to be the same size as before you were wearing the glasses. If you do decide to wear a eyeliner do not make it a thick line; also do not draw your l

One Room Hut and Happy

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It is the Thanksgiving week. In a America we take this time to remember what we have and how blessed we truly are. Mentally I know this fact, that I am rich compared to the worlds population. That I have so much stuff, friends, family, freedom; there is not much else I could ask for. How often do I though? How often do I look at others possessions or positions in life and want them? This past week I was reminded of my trip to Africa. I went to this little village in the bush of Cameroon. If you looked around you would see mud huts. Children running around in clothes not gender specific, they just wore what they could find. Their water was drawn from a stream which was not filtered, causing disease to take many of the villagers. Animals lived with the people, and there was no plumbing or electricity. The days were extremely hot, but the nights bitter cold and they didn't have the proper provisions. Yet these people scurried out of their one room huts to see the foreigners. They ha

Never Forgotten ~ The Affects of Bitterness

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I was reading my devotions about the story of Joseph. Most everyone has heard 'The Coat of Many Colors' story at least once in their life time. It is about Joseph, a kid who is from an extremely disfunctional family. He ended up being sold into slavery by his own kin. Long story short he becomes the second in command over Egypt. Whenever I read this story I always put myself in the shoes of Joseph. What was it like to be betrayed like Joseph? Would I be able to follow God like Joseph did? I never have asked the questions, why did Josephs brothers do what they did? This post I would like to dive into the minds of the ten brothers. So lets put ourselves in the situation of these brothers. They were the sons of the wife their father wasn't very fond of. When their younger brother was born their fathers entire attention went to that little kid. These men were second class citizens to their brother. I don't know about you but if one of my siblings was treated literally like