Walls - Self Preservation
As a child I was definitely considered to be the goodie-two-shoes. I was happy and my spirit was one that was crazy and full of little girl sassiness! I spoke my mind and so easily I loved those in my life. I wanted to show people my life, I wanted to tell all the little details of my every move. I didn't try to hide my flaws or my feelings, I was completely transparent. When you saw me, I showed you who I really was. That was me as a child. Today, as life has happened and I have grown older I have reflected on my life and have come to realize that I am no longer transparent. I no longer let others see me entirely. Am I lying about who I am? No. I just have automatically made a defense mechanism of having so many emotional walls up to prevent others from hurting me. I believe transparency comes easily as a child. When we are young we believe that no one will ever hurt us, that everyone loves us and wants our best. As we get older, we come to the sad realization that humans are s